i dont suffer from insanity but i enjoy it.

:(

2009-09-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

i swear im tired of everthing. i feel like cutting myself. to her, only my brother is the best. to her, only he is the most filial. i hate to feel like this, but what can i do. yes, euu hate miie to the core. will euu be happy when i die? if yes, im willing to give my life to euu. to some, i may be childish, i may be immature, i may not know how to think. But just listen to what she say, it just so disheartening. i cant help to think this way. i want to leave. i really do. i hate being just 18 years old. i hope i can finish my studies now and earned my own money. so that i dont have to depend on them. Euu just cant imagine how much they want miie to leave. sometimes i feel that im not part of the family. Am i? i began to doubt about it.

euu will never know how much the things euu said have hurt miie. euu simply say whatever that euu like, but have euu even spare a thought for miie. no, euu did not. seems like to euu, euu only have got one child, that's eur son. not miie. not at all. i hate it. euu once said, if euu knew that i will become so rebellious, euu would have stranggled miie to death since the day im born. yes. i hope that euu have did that 18 years ago. at least not, euu will be happier and i will not feel so miserable. but what did i actually do? did i do something that is illegal? have i ever learn to smoke or mixed with those bad company. i dont remember doing that. seriously, the reason to why im studying so hard is all because of euu. i wanted to give euua good life, i wanted euu to live in luxury when euu are old. that's why no matter how tired i am, i would fought till the end. that's my motivating force. but didnt did i expect that in eur eyes, im just a useless brat to euu. rubbish should i call myself. euu only care about eur own feelings and thought, have euu ever thought of mine? no, euu did not. euu think i will drive euu to death, but i just want to let euu know that, before euu can do that, i'll die before euu do. i swear.

2009-05-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

Here i am to upload some photos. This ish miie with my beloved sunglass. ;)

Brownie aka ah brown!!! (im so gg to get scoldings from von if she see this. Ha.)

He must be curious to see a rectangular thing with a flash every time i "press" the button.

The so called "EM3 DOG". Not only that, he got a U grade as well. ( speech made by wy's mum. ha. )

The nicest and prettiest photo that i have took for him. Im impressed with my photography skills. OMG! ;)

As i proceed on taking his picture, he starts to get irritated... I v scare, but try to act fierce. However, I think i failed totally -.-

2009-05-01T10:17:00.000-07:00

Went out with von darling today.
Bought alot of things today and i have spent almost 4/5 of my past 2 months' pay.
It's always easier to spend than earn. -.-
so, here ish a short list of what i have bought.
1. blue jeans
2. black jeans
both from maryjane
3. fred perry polo t-shirt for bi
4. crumpler bag for bro
5. jacket for myself

all this add up to almost 400 bucks. then still have a few "liability" to clear.
im gg to be so so broke.
then what im still lacking of ish a pair of haviannas flip flop, a pair of court shoes (ssm is seriously wasting my money), cut hair and more tops.
HAIS! i dont wish to work, but with my huge expenditure, i dont think i have a choice.

So, back to the dog. the dog is called brownie, he's so playful and active. So much to the extent that i dont really dare to touch him. hais. but seriously, jack russel ish not my cup of tea sia.
forget it. hopefully, in the near future, i can rear one on my own. A DOG THAT I CAN CALL IT MINE. bi ish so impatient with him, but still cant blame him totally. the dog ish hard to teach. Maybe brownie can make him learn to be more patient? initially was pretty afraid of bi's mum. for fear that she will scold ( i think i have influence bi by ABIT to get a dog, but didnt expect that dog to be jack russel :( ), for the past few weeks, im so afraid of her to the extent that i dont dare to go to his place. but now, everything ish back to normal. she's alright alrd and im glad about it. so. . went to quite a few place today like bugis, town then katong. wait for bi to come over and fetch us home. before he drop miie off, i passed him the shirt, he changed on the spot. im glad that he like it. starting was quite pissed la. cause when i pass him the shirt, he simply told miie that i bought the wrong size. freak. he was the one who told miie that for those slim fit polo t-shirt, he wear S size. And the sales person told miie that those normal ones are one size bigger than those slim fit de, of course i buy XS for him la. Crap. He ish also the one who tell miie that he like those abit tight fitting de. Then he blame miie for that. At that moment, i was so angry that i told myself, i wont buy him anymore things in the future la. He so smart, i give him the money then he go buy on his own la! arghh......

GUYS.SUCKS.

Will be meeting von darling tmr to the salon. I think it's time for miie to get a hair cut.
Have to wake up pretty early. Here i am blogging, not even bathed yet. .

:)

2009-04-17T09:35:00.000-07:00

Today went out with vonny darling to Tampines 1. We shopped for 4 hours plus non-stop then went geylang to eat prata with her. Nothing much happened today, except that we bought many stationary. Somehow, we are prepared for school to reopen. I think im in the same class as xuejuan, haha, so happy. I've prepared myself for e worst before i come to know we are in the same class. Things just happened beyond my expectations. Everything ish JUST SO NICE.

Im here to blog a little and im off to rest. . I was physically tired after a 4 hours shopping.......

Lastly, aunt got miie an Emporio Armani Sunglass... WOOHOO.. I love it to the max can. When i reached home, it was left on my desk. Went to ask dad about it and know that it was for miie. So random la. But i like. ;)

gtg, good night.....

2009-04-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

im back. ytd was fun and i finally met up with peng :D

In the early afternoon, i forgot to bring my hp, so got to walk all the way to von' house. Then both of us went to town. We went into fred perry, ralph lauren, agnes b and porter shop to see what to get for andy. But in the end, we did not get anything but it was alright. At least, i've bought my tragus stud. ha. come to talk about it, it's pretty funny. There was a price tag on e box full of studs indicating that it ish only one bucks. It is way too cheap la, like HOW COULD IT BE, that kind of thing. When we are about to make payment, we brought it to the counter and thought the salesperson ish gg to put the entire box into the plastic bag. But he did not. He slowly open the box and took out just one stud from it. Initially we didnt quite understand what he was doing and we just stared with great confusement. Lastly, we then got hold of what was happening, one dollar ish just for that one stud. After that, both of us just laugh infront of him. ( how naive are we to even think the entire studs ish just for that one dollar and we still thought why some of the boxes have got missing studs. We even chose the box with the most number of studs. In the end, we are just wasting our effort and time for doing so. ha. )The salesperson was stunned, blurred and kind of thinking what are the two crazy women laughing about. ;) it's cute still. :D

Next, we travelled back home to bake cookies. von found an equippment to fasten the preparation process. Will get photos from her blog when she posts. Just when we are preparing, an apron caught her eyes. that apron was HER MUM'S. She took it down and we wore it. Then we took just a few photos with it, for fear her mum will come in and rattle at her. ha. There was one incident where we mistook MSG for salt, but this time round, we know and we are careful with it. Halfway throughout peng came, and all of us kept gossiping while baking. Seriously, it was fun to gossip sometimes. ha. ;) Time past quickly in that way.. A moment later,von took out the cookies from the oven, smoke spread across the entire kitchen. It seems as if the whole kitchen was on fire. The smoke was smoky, choky and there the cookies... CHAO DA!!!!!!! But if euu really taste it, it doesnt taste as bad euu know. Von was right, one cannot judge a cookies by its cover. I felt that we have improved! It is a good news to be shared. And we are one step closer to our opening of pastry shop. Wahahaha. After that, i got to go of early to have dinner with family and him of course. It was great!

In conclusion, i enjoyed myself very much. ;) I LOVE MY LIFE, FRIENDS, HIM and MY FAMILY!

2009-04-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

im at von's house using her lappy. crap, we both overslept. ha. this girl agreed to meet at 1.30pm, now ish alrd 1.53 ( according to her lappy's time, if accurate).

my intention ish just to make a short post and plus she's rushing miie alrd. GTG now, bye .

;)

2009-04-10T23:08:00.000-07:00

i went out with von ytd. everything ish just so in its place, nice. So, we went to salon for her to touch up her hair colour, cut plus treatment. it took us 2 bloody hours. she was tired, keep dozing off and im bored, keep on eating. followed by shopping in town area.
so we have classified our love for our wants into 3 cateogories and we will use a t-shirt as an example:

1. puppy love aka 小狗爱: euu like that t-shirt, but after a day despite not buying it, euu will somehow forget about it. Another scenario is that, after euu bought the shirt, euu wont even wear it. NOT EVEN ONCE!
2. crush: euu like that t-shirt, euu bought it, but euu only like/use it for a short period of time, after that euu just throw it aside.
3. true love: euu love e t-shirt alot, euu bought it, but euu will wear and use it frequently for a long period of time (it may not need to be forever)

Here, i will officially and proudly declare that i, CINDY KANG aka KK will be YVONNE LIN aka Ah B** Ying's personal financial consultant. To help her cure her "shopaholic psychological illness" , she is not supposed to buy something that ish of no. 1 love. For no. 2 and no. 3, still can consider buying, at least she uses it. This girl here ish bloody waste money, bought a dress and not even wear it.

Ytd she saw one of her crush ( a denim vest) and one of her puppy love (a vintage dress). Knowing her for pretty long, one can roughly gauge if she will wear sth for long or not. It's all about agar-ration! warning: 阿姨是有练过的，小朋友请不要学！！

After that, we went to had Astons at katong. We reached there 5 mins before their last order.

This plate of masterpiece ish done by ABY...
Apart from wasting money on clothes, she WASTE FOOD too~~

African kids are so so going to hate her to the core la. Tsk Tsk.

von, 你造孽啊!
Here is the evidence...

The guilty one. Dont even dare to show her
face. ;)
Afraid of being condemned?

Act innocent. THE MOST WANTED " WASTER" !!!!!!!

*My Wants*

Slim cut Jeans $50
Bag $50
Running track shoes $100 plus
Bikini $30plus
More facial product and Makeup $***

There are always not enough money to get every wants. ;) So to work ish the most assertive way to have them.

To: von
Last but not least, millions sorry to euu for not being able to make it to accompany euu. Cause just now, my mum came in my room and remind miie of e dinner tmr. ;( I hope euu understand that it's not i wanted it too. sorry... :(

2009-04-09T10:05:00.000-07:00

I'm back from work.
Today is public holiday eve, so was pretty busy . It's something good actually as time will tend to pass very fast. Tomorrow will be out with von dear, im sure we are so so going to enjoy ourselves. I desire for a new bag. It's been quite some time ever since i have got myself one. Will be keeping on a lookout for it. ;) bi will be out to malaysia tmr. Ha. It's havoc time. ;)

been reading von's blog whenever i gets online. She reminds miie that it's a been a long time we had an outing with peng. von noted that she did not get to see her due to peng's busy schedule, but it's much longer on my side. And as i read on, happy moments that we shared in secondary school simply flashed across my mind. At the same time, i really could feel how much i miss it. peng, i miss euu. Hope we can meet up to have a meal or a short outing? :(
Both von and i really treasure the friendship with euu and i hope euu know we are always here for euu. love euu, girl. :)

2009-04-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

Im kind of lazy to update my blog for the past few days.

Went to malaysia with vonny last friday together her adorable family. It's my first oversea trip with von. I enjoyed it very much. Honestly speaking, it's quite surprising that mum actually agreed to my request. It's our first step to more oversea outing. Hopefully in the near future, we can go somewhere further than malaysia, such as hong kong, bang kok and etc. ;) So, we went there and eat literally hell lots of food, we are so going to gain more weight. It also means that in order to maintain my current weight, i got to go for more gyming sessions. CRAP! it's tiring and i simply gym for the sake of gyming. lol.

*Miscellaneous*
1. My throat hurts seriously and with my low-pitched voice, i felt as if i've transformed into a man.
2. im eager to know my time-table, i've checked the school's website but to no avail. hopefully, it will be a nice one so that i can meet vonny.
3. im also eager to know who will be in the same class as miie for the next semester. will it be siqi, irene or zhao qiang. ARGHHHH... it's driving miie crazy. =/
4. im kind of tired of working, and im shocked that i had thought for school to reopen soon even though it happened only once or the most twice.
5. i have strong craving for Macdonalds', but im not gg to let it to have in my way. It's for my complexion as well as my throat.
6. When working, i need to explain to the customers about our restaurant's concepts. Due to having sore throat and cough, i've got strong urge to really cough right in their face. It's really stressing for fear i'll do it accidentally. =/

come to read my previous posts, i realised that mum have got well from her fever, cough and flu. Now, it's my turn to fight against the irritating cough. i'll end things here, i've got to work tomorrow. =/

2009-03-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

As promised, here are the photos that i have taken during the aviva event as well as my outing with von dearest. ;)

Von suggested an outing with her family to malaysia. I asked my parent about it, they pretty much agreed to it since it does not require miie to stay overnight. If that outing is finalised, im pretty much looking forward to it. It will be the first time i travel oversea with von dearest. ;) hope everything will go smoothly.

Met bi today. i went to heeren to get sth and got a ride home. ;) he came over to my place to eat popiah. It's cooked and made by mummy. Got standard one can. It was a short meeting, but still i enjoyed his presence. :)

mummy is sick, so poor thing. hope she get well soon. i helped her abit with her household chores. Recently, i felt that i have the best mummy in the world despite we do have arguements and quarrels. She's just so noble, taking care of us, household chores, EVERYTHING without any complaints. i simply cannot imagine how would it be like without her. i love you, mum.

i lead a normal life, but im just loving it. ;)

Even though there will be many, plenty, lots of obstacles that lies ahead (for most people they will have), but i'm positive about it. :)

2009-03-24T08:08:00.000-07:00

For the past two days,i have been undergoing my tv therapy.I didnt know hong kong drama can be so nice. The one that i've watched is "seventh day", a love story. ;) I've completed the whole drama. ;)

Nothing much happened recently.I did not sleep on saturday and was at east coast with siqi. Both of us participated in the aviva ironman trialthon. I forgot the name of the champion. But the first runner up is macca. They participated in several international trialthon. They are simply so amazing can. They completed the entire 70.3 km trialthon race in just 3 hrs and 40 plus minutes can and that involved cycling, running and swimming. The first few runner are all from australia, tall and muscular. i only have one word to describe their speed and perseverance, "impressive". I met some new friends there too. They are nice and friendly. They briefly told us how is it like to be in university and all. But we did not leave each other contact number despite the entire event was coming to an end. What a pity, but ish okay. If fate really do exists, i think we will bump onto each other some day in the future. ;)

I enjoyed the entire event despite getting paid merely for 30 bucks. like what siqi had mentioned, it's not the money that really matters. What matters more ish the experience that we obtained. We see how a trialthon event ish being organised and blah. The entire event only ended by sunday evening. Initially, i thought i'll be okay for not obtaining any sleep. However, as noon approached, i realised that im not as strong as i thought i am. My mind started to shut down, that moment was a torment indeed. I had a short nap, but it worsen the situation. Migrain started to bug miie due to the lack of rest and i started to feel dizzy. By the time we were allowed to go home, we still have to walk all the way back to pp to catch a bus, how i wish i can take a cab then. But before i've got my pay, i really got to save and be thrifthy.

i got to go and bath now. shall upload the photos i had with von some other time. ;)

2009-03-11T21:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went rollerblading with siqi and irene. Was drizzling but we didnt really care much. It's was fun. I fell down and now, not only my muscle ache but my butt hurts too. Still i love rollerblading as much. I didnt managed to get the photos we took ytd from irene, but will post as soon as i get hold of it. ;)

I have got back my result. Only got 1 A (microeconomics), im quite disappointed to see that somehow. But i know i have tried my best. As for my psycho, despite my poor project presentation but my written test managed to pull miie up all the way to C+. It's better than my leadership can, i got C for it. I did not study at all for it, i only know how to do some and that's why it's the poorest subject of them all. ;( But no one to blame, ultimately i chose to focus more on psychology which i will fail badly for sure if i dont place greater emphasis on it. Hm. i just hope that i will not get any free-loader project group mates in the future. This semester is really a hard time for miie. Alot thanks to IRENE and SIQI, without eur encouragement i dont think i'll be able to overcome these. Both of you are much appreciated. ;)
After this semester, i have learnt a lesson. Never take everything to yourself, cause you will collasped eventually. It's a severe mistake that i have done out of sympathy. Just because i choose not to tell the teacher about the free-loader issue, my grades are suffering tgt with them despite lots of hard work that i have put in. I felt unfair and dumb, but everything is fixed. So i shall just learn from it and be positive. ;) im fine and i know i am.

Will be meeting yvonne lin xin ying later, and here i am not preparing myself, still blogging. It's been months and weeks ever since the last time i have seen her, I MISS YOU LOADS. Pray god that she wont be late, of course hopefully i wont be late as well. ;)

2009-02-28T04:28:00.001-08:00

Ytd, bi took half day off from camp. Every time whenever i go to his place, without fail, he will come and pick miie up at simei mrt station but ytd he failed to do so... He told miie that he got sth on. i felt kind of weird and was pondering what was he up to that can actually ignore my exisitence. Many thoughts came flashing across my mind. I was pretty sure on one thought but didn't really dare to read too much from it. Im kind of afraid that the higher i pin on the hope, the greater the fall.

I listened to ipod touch and somehow i got to his doorstep. His brother picked up the phone, miraculously i didnt realise that he's not wee yik as the background was a bit too noisy for miie to catch clearly. Then i keep asking wei chun where are you, damn retarded. After when i realised that, it gets a bit embarrassing. Next, bi opened the door for miie. Know what? I WAS RIGHT!!! HE MADE MY FABOURITE POTATO SALAD !!??? He even fried onions rings, bacon, etc as my lunch. So sweet la. Although the potato salad cannot be compared to those restaurants' standard but still it's the thoughts that counts, isn't it? It was kind of sweet to get that from him as he is really a poor cook. ;) I maybe weak in culinary skills, but i dare to say that im so much more better than him can. ha. But, thanks to him for putting in the effort and i really, sincerely appreciate that. If my memory isn't failing miie, i rmb that he say he will do potato salad for miie again. This time round, it will no longer be using weeyik's recipes but siqi's boyfriend's. WAHA. Im looking forward to that.

Then we went off at 4 liddat to looking for siqi and her bf. Together, we watched marley and me. It was quite a good show, but i still prefer benjamin buttons more. Personally, i find the storyline of benjamin buttons is more interesting. (or maybe becasue Brad Pit is the main lead) Whenever i think of brad pit, i'll rmb zhao qiang saying "mian bao zhu" (direct translate for the words bread pig). It's super lame la. Still, it managed to pull a smile across my face. Ha. I cried at the last part where marley is put to sleep, the speech given by john was really touching. For that moment, my heart just ached. ;( After that, we went to town. Siqi's bf was considering signing on to SAF. I dont know why. But i was affected or being psyched into joining and be part of them in a way. I told bi about the "wild idea" of mine, but was in the end lectured by him. Stupid crap. Siqi and I got a free movie ticket, nice navy uncle asked to do a form and another counter to get them. thanks alot uncle. Maybe, siqi and i will use that voucher to watch "he's just not that into you"... Waha. It gonna be fun hurr. Poor bi and siqi's bf did not get to have it. They simply got to PAY whereas we got it for FREE. Ha.

After everything are done, we went to geylang and eat dim sum. So nice and yummy can. My craving for egg tart was satisfied. At that very point, i felt i was the most fortunate girl in the whole universe can. . Abit exaggerated but, the egg tart is like finger licking good can (at least, to miie)... No words could ever describe it. Then, i ordered some dim sum and "da bao" for my family to eat. Then went to east coast for a while before heading home.

Last but not least, i enjoyed myself with the couple date.. ;)

we took some pictures in the car... Here we go.. ;)

2009-02-24T20:37:00.000-08:00

MY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER.. Been waiting for this for so long. I need a break severely. It is very tiring for most to keep studying and chiong-ing projects and assignments, having to face all the obstacles that surface. I am included as one of those.

I had a small chat on msn with one of my friends. she told miie that she will be studying abroad and that solely causes her $30k. If we were to calculate the rental of the apartment and other miscellenous fee, it will be another $4~5k.. AND that's not the fee of getting a degree yet. . I think it will be more ex. I have been wanting to study abroad, but have not decide on anything yet. Hopefully, everything will go smooth for me to study oversea. Waiting forward for that. :)
I will definitely going to miss her so much.

Regarding to the BCS project was a great disappointment. Why? Despite all the effort put in, we only managed to get a grade C. How disheartening was that. Furthermore, the reason given was plagiarism. We just cant accept that. Upon looking for the subject leader, it isnt' of much help. Everything remains. They just dont understand what we are trying to put across despite a pretty long email. Firstly, when we asked the tutor if we are able to use existing hotel, he was the one who say okay. just do some edition and all will do. Like we say, if we are going to do on exisiting hotel, shouldnt we use their logo and all? It's more than logical to do that. But they just... Was kind of upset. But somehow learned helplessness had overcome miie. Maybe,these obstacles and difficulties that surface are meant to make us learnt and make us a better person. I guess so. i think we all have to be optismistic and positive enough to be happy. They are all vital, essential and a key to smile everyday? No point to brood over it if everything were fixed. Of course, if there's things that i can do to change all the outcome, i'll be most willing to do that. Since that alternaltive is out, then??? cant poosible sit down and cry fot the entire month right. So... Yupp.. i guessed i have grown up by a bit. ;) Afterall, that unforgettable psychology project allowed miie to learn in one way or two. =) im glad that i have encountered that somehow. hm? for another second i thought, i must be crazy to think that way. ha. But, who cares?

Recently im obssessed to the idea of getting a DOG. bi and i even went to the dog farm to check out the market price. Know what?? it's during exam period, i failed to hold on after all his persuasion and psycho-ing. Damn. He told miie that there's a sale going on for only that period of time. In then end? there wasnt even any sale la, at least to those that we have visited. DAMN DAMN. But still, puppies for sale there in SOME dog farms are still considered cheaper than those price in a pet shop, especially pet safari. It's so expensive can. They are selling toy poodle puppies at $2.5k if im not wrong, but the toy poodle at dog farm can go as low to $1.5k.. 1k can really make a great difference la. Another crap thing... ;)

Bi and i thought of getting a toy poodle. It's so cute can. It's the only dog that both of us agreed on. I dont want bulldog, it look so grumpy can. Everyday facing that thing can make miie grumpy as well. I dont want it to affect myself. What for i look for more suffering for myself? im not that stupid. For shin tsu, i dont mind getting it, but he told miie that he wont take care of it for long. Then what's the point? might as well get a toy poodle where both of us can make long term commitment.

Now, i'll show euu "our" baby.. :)

CUTE RIGHT?? I KNOW. :)
*scream*

End here my post here. Shall update asap next time. =)

2009-02-07T01:07:00.000-08:00

OMG.. it's been so long ever since i last updated my blog.. But was really busy earlier on. I had psycho presentation on thursday. Every just not seems to be right. My group flunked the entire presentation. Honestly speaking, im just so damn angry and disappointed. It's one of the project that i had put in so much effort and the worse subject that i have ever done. I know that all my effort had gone down the drain. It's the second time i cried in the school, wholeheartedly. My psycho group members saw it and all they know was to say that they know that i have put in the most effort, all those things are not my fault and all. But what's the point of saying all those. The marks have been set and are finalized. If they know that all these things are going to happen, why didn't they put in slightly more effort in these. I seriously dont expect much, trust me. Just a bit more effort and that's enough. What's more they expect me to do, i have done almost everything or in fact most of the thing for them and i have my own stuff to get busy with as well. Yes, they may have lots of projects on their hand, but what makes them think that i dont. With the utmost effort that i can ever put in, for sure i will pin higher hope on that. My hopes are just dashed,completely. What pissed me most was that one of them dont even know what he is suppose and not to say. If that's the case, i rather he keep his mouth shut. Now, i seriously realised the importance of having good group mates. =(

Whatever. No matter what i do or say, it's Doesn't Matter anymore.

Anyway, thanks a lot to siqi if she happens to read this blog. Thanks for being by my side, willing to lend me a shoulder to lie on and a pair of listening ear. I seriously appreciate that. Ms Maria chia as well, for counseling me to let this go and not letting it to bother me since i have exams and presentations coming up. I need to adjust my mood, not allowing this to affect me. Thanks you very much. Lastly, im proud of myself for being able to put my emotions aside, focusing on my exams and test. Dont worry for me, im fine already.

This entire week is the busiest week. At last, I've got over it. Can give myself a short break, like finally. . Been looking forward to it and yupp, i guess i really need it. Went for a briefing on friday and we were late, the lecturer/tutor( not very sure who he is, partly cant be bothered) scream like crazy la. Guess what, we are only late for like a few minutes. From here, you can actually imagine how strict he is. I guess i'll have a hard time in year 2 la. It's will be teaching us on how to actually interact with real-life customers and all. Have to "work as part-time" in Temasek. Then, he told us that for the 1st month of that module, he will drill us like crazy. After that, we will somehow "evolve" to become a "better person". I have no doubt in that, just that i have to admit that i am afriad. But OKAY la, i believe i can DEFINITELY OVERCOME IT. CAUSE I AM A HTM STUDENT. =)

GTG. i'll update asap. =)

2009-01-13T07:00:00.000-08:00

Kind of lazy to blog, so i just update some of the pictures taken on last thursday and friday.

There isn't much happening today, had project meeting with si qi, irene and jose since comm skills lesson was cancelled. i wasn't being able to pay attention la. somehow, i think i was influenced by irene la. SHORT ATTENTION SPAN... LIKE SERIOUSLY... But i wasn't like that usually, REALLY.

Kept eating irene's fisherman sweet. then dumb joselin gave me wrong info.. say what weeyik and other guys cannot eat fisherman sweet. i was stunt la. then i asked her why. she said that will kill sperm. lols. it's actually mentos, not fisherman can. then we started with a " sperm joke", but it's quite lame.. lols.

Then went home, did on the OB ppt. actually wanted to start on psycho, but was pretty lazy to even see.. i felt that my psycho group project really quite "chui" lo as compared to others. but hais. i have learnt some lesson still, shared it with siqi. shall share with euu guys some other time. :)

I am VIDEO CONFERENCING with siqi la. lame. then she wear winnie the pooh clothes to sleep. shame shame. ha.

GTG... take care...

2009-01-09T22:49:00.000-08:00

So sorry for the late update of my blog. was rather busy recently. hm. for thursday and friday, i participated in the b-guides. There's two parts to it. one is the "tour guides" and another is the " Rah Rah team". And i was allocated to the tour guides catergory . So i was supposed to bring those visitors to assigned destinations and let them know more about the courses in business school. I partner-ed with joselin for both days. Orh ya. Euu may be wondering what Rah Rah team is about. Basically, it is to shout out the cheers of Business school or Tp la. I find it rather lame la, abit "ma lu" also, but it's just my personal opinion. Euu may beg to differ. Overall, im glad with the position allocated to me.

Thursday

We gathered at business entrance and waited for the visitors who needed someone to bring them around the school. Initially, joselin and i were very bored as there were not many visitors. Maybe because it was the first day of the open house/ it was thursday, not many would come on that day. Then it was finally our turn, we brought them around, then we went to " eat snake". Without telling those In-Charge, joselin and i went for our lunch, we toured around engineering school and played Wii. ha. It was fun as we were able to get into places that usually allowed no entry to students of other courses. So we got into the ilaw chamber(for law), kelly services(for business), brandhub(for marketing) and etc. Also, we went into the mediabiz whereby there were booths providing information about HTM,LRM and CCM. Jose and i had the sample cookies distributed by the CCM people. Wah... Damn nice la. How i wish.... Ha. No la. Im faithful with my course and im contented with what i have now. We also went to the Mass dance, actually we are not supposed to but we went there on our own, putting the roles of tour guides aside. IT WAS AMAZING. Every one danced our hearts out, for once i felt that TP's students are pretty united. Mass dance is the part whereby i enjoyed most. Reached home and 6 plus, had my dinner and accompanied by brother to make spectacles. It's a waste of my time la. Merely 1 hours will allow me to do many stuff can. Time is precious la, and there's a saying " time = money". Can euu imagined, how much i spent that day??? Whatever, i shall stop my whining.

Friday

Went for microeconomics in the morning and then headed for the b-guides stuff again. Jose was wearing slipper and we were told that the upper management only allow guides to wear covered shoes. Fine. So we switched from b-guides to LT-guides. So, what is LT-guides? They are supposed to control the number of people getting into the LT for the short skit " Who will be the next top model student", ask more people to watch the skit as they can only start after the theatre is half-fulled, at least. Lastly, stopping people coming in when the skit started. Being the LT -guides, jose and i were so bored that we watched the same skit for THREE TIMES. Ha. Before they get to say/do anything, we already know what will follow next. Ha. It's pretty entertaining, retarded as well. Overall, not too bad, just that some of them speak too fast that people may not get to catch up with what they say.Jose and I went off at 2.45pm, early departure. . I headed home to put my books and went to meet von. Actually we intended to buy our new year clothes la. But we couldnt find any, so we went around talking nonsense, taking lame photos. Stupid von, keep wanting to take a picture with Edward Cullen, have she ever spare a thought for him? He may not want to take photo with her la. Ha. Then, we went into the Fancl outlet, von keep aiming for the sample Vitamin B&C tablets, then we G&R(gob and run). ha. Before that, we had aston for our dinner. von said the katong outlet's standard wasnt as good as before as the black pepper fish she ordered doesnt taste as good. for me, i find it alright. Moral of the story, it's always safer to order chicken... heh heh. im smart while she's dumb, no one to blame. ha.

Anyway i got back my results for all. Comm skills was a complete disappointment as i got D for it. But somehow, i did not expect much for it either. My command of english isn't that good from the start. I just hope that i can get a C or better B+ for it. And next sem onwards, comm skills will no longer be in my module.. woohooo.... Then i can concentrate more on my others modules. OB results was released on thursday, calina msged jose telling her that i topped for OB and she passed the msg to miie. I was shocked, literally... I didn't expect it to happen, happy but not to the extreme, i dont know why either. On friday, i asked siqi about the marks i got for OB and she actually noted it down. So NICE OF HER la. If not, i think i'll will not know the actual marks but only the grade. I got 28/30, same as irene.Microeconomics result was released on friday, got 96/100. Again, happy to a certain extent only. i think my feelings are a bit weird leis. Supposedly, i should be very very happy, but i felt happy only.. i just cant make up what happen to miie recently.

Saturday

Im at bi's house now, blogging. He's beside me now, complaining. Saying that i neglected him. See la. the sacrifices i've made for blogging, updating all of euu with those HAPPENINGS... Kays la. i shall end here le. Photos will be updated asap. =)

Take care, loves~

2009-01-04T23:47:00.000-08:00

Ha. Im in school now. Using the lab's computer. I was very hungry just now la and i ate the same thing for my breakfast and lunch, both are pies with different fillings. noob. I felt that i was really very dependent on him la, in the past that will never happens, SERIOUSLY.. Sometimes, i'll felt that im a burden lo. He's in army now then i kept pestering him. lols. Si qi is rushing me to do projects now. bad girl.. gtg..

take care... =)

2009-01-04T07:18:00.000-08:00

Ytd was really fun. We went to geylang bahru/ kallang bahru to have western. though i only had coleslaw, for the sake of my pimples, i bet euu can tell how much have i sacrifice for those red spots on my face. it's sad to see them la, how i wish they can get as far away as possible from me. For the western food i guess and from what i see, i think it's not too bad bah, von seems to be enjoying it as well although i dont know if she has had an ulterior motive for gg there. i will be bringing bi to there one day. i want to explore more places with good food so that i can actually share with the one i love. so yupp, gg to do more work/research on that, when i have time.=)

After that, we went back to kallang and we started our drinking session. von brought a drink called Carona/Corona which resembles TIGER BEER, seriously i cant taste the difference. After we finished, we went on the drink vodka??? it seriously TASTE SO MUCH NICER than that braddy drink la after compare and contrast. initially i did not feel anything, i was as conscious as i could ever be and i still yaya papaya telling von that i can drink more, saying that all those are not enough to make me drunk. BUT after i boarded the bus, the alcohol effect began to take places. i was abit tipsy/giddy, that feeling was kind of nice cause at that moment even if euu are troubled by ANYTHING, euu wont even get to think about it. i guess that's the reason why people go to drink whenever they are down. OF COURSE they will also go to drink when they are happy cause alcohol will give them a kind of "excitement", that's what i learnt in Food & Beverage, true or not euu decide. When i reached home, i lied on my bed while talking to bi, the only thing that i remember is that i was very tired at that moment and i dont know if i sprouted any nonsense to him, hopefully not.. As soon as i hung up with him, i FELL ASLEEP!!! i think it only take me 5 seconds in doing so. and KNOW WHAT????? i did not bath and i did not manage to remove my make-up which i NORMALLY WOULD, SERIOUSLY. IM SOMEONE CLEAN LO!!! Just for that night, i allowed myself to be a dirty fellow, well well well, i'll emphasise again, JUST FOR THAT NIGHT.

SO, i'll give ytd 10/10 if i were to grade it.

Today was boring, mum woke me up to go bugis with her, aunties, uncles, cousins and bro. Then we were walking down a lane. i told evan that if our entire family were to come down, the lane will be fully-occupied la, anyway the lane wasn't very long but normal. Quite cool when that thought flashed through my mind. Then helped my cousin to choose his clothes, kind of difficult lo. cause there's alot of clothes whereby it's trendy but HE DONT WEAR... and we have to go around to look for those normal and simple t-shirts, but alright la, wasn't really as bad afterall. Then after went to charles and keith, i saw a pair of shoes, shaped like those ballet shoes, very nice but i dont like the heels of it. even though i really like the overall, but i bought another pair, the colour that i want was out of stock, aunty asked the sales person to help us check if marine parade outlet have the colour that i want then she told her to reserve it for us.Uncle then drove us from bugis to marine parade just to buy it, so nice of him hurr. auntieS were nice too, as they accompanied there despite their fatigue.. love them lots.

Ha. i saw nelson and zhen lu today at parkway starbuck, was shocked to see them there. I was holding yolande, and that stupid nelson teased me by saying when did euu have a child??? i was loss for words, but was thinking yolande is nine years old this year, so am i susposed to give birth to her when i was nine??? As far as im concerned, i wasn't having any AV at that time la.

AV= Auntie Visits ( was taught by my aunt la, actually i didn't know what it stands for. initially what i thought was Audio-Visuals???????? whatever.)

That's all for today. 2008 Review Part 2...

Took pictures with bi when he's sending me home, we were on the train. And that time, he was waiting for his car to come, sometimes, i'll reminisce those mements that we spent on public transport. butluckily even though his car came, i am still placed before his car in his heart, i guess so. =)

Know what was he doing? He was at my place then and we were competing, seeing who has got the talent of ARTS. we draw the same thing and my brother was the judge,

IN THE END, HE WON!

Till now, i still cant accept that fact. I vowed to compete with him some day and the judge must know how to appreciate fine art work, im trying to say my brother dont appreciate really nice stuff and my piece are work of an artist, euu get that? =)

Taken photos with shufanf, peng, von and miie. Venue was Art Room, the place where von and i had most of our drawings done there. the school is going to be demolished soon, i'll miss it, really.

Shufang was once a very good friend of von and i, due to some minor conflicts, we splited. we regretted, how i wished things wouldn't end up like these...

3 besties for life....

I remember that this photo were taken at tiong bahru or some place far from east, she went to had dinner with me and my family. After that we went to leisure park, some times i wished that euu were my biological sisters.

Hm, maybe next lifetime??? =)

Taken at Bugis coffeshop after work with bi and michelle. They waited for me, so sweet lurr. Had frog's porridge and etc.. An enjoyable night...

We took this inside a neoprint machine, that's why our complexion seems to be PERFECT...

Waha, i love this... =)

~to be continued~

2009-01-03T00:30:00.000-08:00

Miraculously, today is saturday and i did not go out. I was rotting all the way, at home, doing notes again and maybe later i'll be touching on some of my projects. initially i wanted to meet bi, but he was just being nice to let me have a good rest, but i rather not to have it. i would rather meet him even if we were to rot together. hais. even though im doing on my notes, it's like so inefficient. spending few hours to get a 2.5 topics of a subject done. my goodness, time is precious and here i goes wasting time like nobody's business. I WANT DRINKING SESSION WITH VON TOO,even though im having some monthly business. hehheh. but who cares.. flow all it wants, the most i'll die due to mass blood loss. wahaha. i shall stop all my nonsense.

shall i post some of 2008 pictures so as to review the days in 2008?? here comes the cindy 2008 review part 1. =)

The day where von and i went to reborn our hair and headed to aston for our dinner. Was sort of a rotting day, having to sit in the salon for several hours. but was enjoyable.

The day i had my hair permed. Looking back, i looks so aunty. now i know why my friends will say i look better when my hair was straight. but well, i live with the hair for a year still and i managed to SURVIVE. =)

The first time i met her straight after school ever since we left secondary and started our poly life. it was late in the night and we met at orchard. i remembered that i was late then. =)

The day when he celebrated my birthday together with my poly friends. He made 2404 hearts for me just because of a casual remark that i made. Also, a coach wristlet which i seldom use cause it's kind of too small for me. but still love it and i take very good care of it la. =)

if im not wrong, after that "celebration", i was going to meet von after that.

The day we went to marine parade with yolande, mum and brother. Do we look like a happy family? ha. we used to joke about that. he's the father, i being the mother and my cousin, our beloved daughter. ha. creative imagination? i wouldn't doubt so. =)

The image of our future once came to my mind, if we were to get tgt in the end, he will be a strict and firm father while i'll be the benevolent mother. so whenever the kid(s) is/are naughty, he will be the one that does all the scoldings and beating and i'll the one protecting them from the MONSTER!! ha.

We went to Sakae and the number of plates that we have completed. This shows that both of us have really small apetitite la. DONT DOUBT US! =)

That's all for now. I got to do my projects already.

~to be continued~

2009-01-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

Today was alright, but was very tiring. Before school ended, we had microecons lecture. i was so tired that i wasn't really listening but just copy everything down onto my book. not too bad la, for the least, i did not fall asleep. then, went home and dragged my bro to accompany me to evan's place again. Evan's mum is babysitting for others, and the baby is like so CUTE la. i personally feel that babies have irresistible charm, they succeeded in capturing all my attention la. i dont think there will be a day whereby i'll get sick of them, seriously. then was playing with that baby girl for the entire afternoon before heading to work, of course, i did some of my notes as well, so as to make full use of my time. work was boring as usual, but nvm, it's over for this week since i'll only be working once a week or sth. after work, bi was sweet la. he drive to fetch me for supper. Because evan is staying at my place tonight, hence i forced her to go and have supper with bi and i too. we had dim sum, it's delicious. YUMMY~ then headed home after that.

bi, i am all ready. by all means to "TEST WATER" on me. ha. i'll prove euu wrong. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS! WAHAHAHA..

actually i intended to ask von out, but our time clashes, she was meeting her bf and i was meeting bi. but nvm. we will still find time to meet up asap. when there's a mean, there will be a way.

today was happy. =)

2009-01-02T09:14:00.000-08:00

today was kind of boring. i was have microecons lecture before school ends, but was too tired

2009-01-01T08:26:00.000-08:00

OUR LOVE STORY..

And i love him..

I dont care what will be the ending of us, but i just want to let euu know how much i love euu. i have never love someone so deep before. when i said that, im serious. i just want to last long with euu, as long as we can be. No matter what's the ending of our story, i wont regret the decision that i have made on 24/4/08, to get back with euu. In fact, i really enjoyed myself during this period of time. I hope there's more to come. . For the year that had just past, i wished to tell euu that im sorry. Sorry for my wildfulness, sorry for things that i had done which hurts euu/pissed euu off, sorry for miie being unreasonable and all. I hope euu will forgive me. And for this new year, i promise euu that i will try my very best to curb my temper, be more mature and also to be a good girlfriend. Lastly,I LOVE YOU.

Dont ever let go of my hands, hold miie tight to the degree which euu can ever hold, continue to have faith in this relationship and believe that we are meant for each other. This is my wish for this year, 2009. ONG WEE YIK, will euu fufill that for me?

2009-01-01T07:34:00.000-08:00

Nothing much really happen today. Was quite a boring day actually. Woke up and wash my face with tears due to some image that i wouldnt want to remember. Hate it but if it were to happen, i guess there's nothing much i can do isnt it?hopefully,it wll just be a false alarm. All i can do ish to cherish what i have now and make sure that things that i do now wont leave me with any regrets. Im feeling much more better now..

Hm. Went to the hawker centre near my place for lunch. Ate pork chop, like again. Went home and bath with my cousins waiting for me at my place. Then we headed to marine parade to shop for new year clothes. Not for me as i intended to shop with von after we have set on a day whereby both of us are free. But my cousins did not manage to get anything for themselves too, so it's a pretty fruitless trip. Took the free shuttle bus outside parkway to Bedok. We split, with the adults shopping for clothes and stuff and us on our own rotting. We sat at the skating field or park i dont know what's that called but whatever watching people skating/cycling here and there wherby i have no interest in looking at the stunt they made, but went there for the sake of sitting down. How pathetic it is la. Then one of my cousin said that he's a bit uncomfortable and need to go to the washroom. He even asked us to wait for him but we did not see any sight of him after that la. I thought he was abducted by some bad guys or got himself into trouble, all of us were like very worried for him. but GUESSED WHAT? in the end when we decided to call the adults and tell them about this bad news that my cousin went missing, we were informed that he was at home, AT HOME!!! All of us were kind of pissed la. Cause we went around searching high and low for him but to no avail and in the end he's AT HOME!!! Evangeline was like scolding and screaming at her brother on the fone. damn hilarious la. =) After that, we had our dinner and evangeline's place was the next venue. I saw a very interesting video clip done by her friend, it was for her. Sweet and touching were the words to use. Evangeline and i were using the com doing this bloody blog thing for the entire one hour. a waste of time la. but i just feel like blogging. I have a bad omen that my blog will die after some time when i got sick of blogging. we shall wait and see. =) Anyway, thanks alot girl, w/o euu i guess i have to waste a number of hours doing this la. =)

At night,i was msging bi. It's been quite some time whereby we had a wonderful conversation through messages. i love euu. =)