Wednesday, September 16, 2009
i swear im tired of everthing. i feel like cutting myself. to her, only my brother is the best. to her, only he is the most filial. i hate to feel like this, but what can i do. yes, euu hate miie to the core. will euu be happy when i die? if yes, im willing to give my life to euu. to some, i may be childish, i may be immature, i may not know how to think. But just listen to what she say, it just so disheartening. i cant help to think this way. i want to leave. i really do. i hate being just 18 years old. i hope i can finish my studies now and earned my own money. so that i dont have to depend on them. Euu just cant imagine how much they want miie to leave. sometimes i feel that im not part of the family. Am i? i began to doubt about it.
euu will never know how much the things euu said have hurt miie. euu simply say whatever that euu like, but have euu even spare a thought for miie. no, euu did not. seems like to euu, euu only have got one child, that's eur son. not miie. not at all. i hate it. euu once said, if euu knew that i will become so rebellious, euu would have stranggled miie to death since the day im born. yes. i hope that euu have did that 18 years ago. at least not, euu will be happier and i will not feel so miserable. but what did i actually do? did i do something that is illegal? have i ever learn to smoke or mixed with those bad company. i dont remember doing that. seriously, the reason to why im studying so hard is all because of euu. i wanted to give euua good life, i wanted euu to live in luxury when euu are old. that's why no matter how tired i am, i would fought till the end. that's my motivating force. but didnt did i expect that in eur eyes, im just a useless brat to euu. rubbish should i call myself. euu only care about eur own feelings and thought, have euu ever thought of mine? no, euu did not. euu think i will drive euu to death, but i just want to let euu know that, before euu can do that, i'll die before euu do. i swear.
euu will never know how much the things euu said have hurt miie. euu simply say whatever that euu like, but have euu even spare a thought for miie. no, euu did not. seems like to euu, euu only have got one child, that's eur son. not miie. not at all. i hate it. euu once said, if euu knew that i will become so rebellious, euu would have stranggled miie to death since the day im born. yes. i hope that euu have did that 18 years ago. at least not, euu will be happier and i will not feel so miserable. but what did i actually do? did i do something that is illegal? have i ever learn to smoke or mixed with those bad company. i dont remember doing that. seriously, the reason to why im studying so hard is all because of euu. i wanted to give euua good life, i wanted euu to live in luxury when euu are old. that's why no matter how tired i am, i would fought till the end. that's my motivating force. but didnt did i expect that in eur eyes, im just a useless brat to euu. rubbish should i call myself. euu only care about eur own feelings and thought, have euu ever thought of mine? no, euu did not. euu think i will drive euu to death, but i just want to let euu know that, before euu can do that, i'll die before euu do. i swear.
what we could have been, 8:40 AM.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Here i am to upload some photos. This ish miie with my beloved sunglass. ;)
Brownie aka ah brown!!! (im so gg to get scoldings from von if she see this. Ha.)
He must be curious to see a rectangular thing with a flash every time i "press" the button.
The so called "EM3 DOG". Not only that, he got a U grade as well. ( speech made by wy's mum. ha. )
The nicest and prettiest photo that i have took for him. Im impressed with my photography skills. OMG! ;)As i proceed on taking his picture, he starts to get irritated... I v scare, but try to act fierce. However, I think i failed totally -.-
what we could have been, 7:35 AM.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Went out with von darling today.
Bought alot of things today and i have spent almost 4/5 of my past 2 months' pay.
It's always easier to spend than earn. -.-
so, here ish a short list of what i have bought.
1. blue jeans
2. black jeans
both from maryjane
3. fred perry polo t-shirt for bi
4. crumpler bag for bro
5. jacket for myself
all this add up to almost 400 bucks. then still have a few "liability" to clear.
im gg to be so so broke.
then what im still lacking of ish a pair of haviannas flip flop, a pair of court shoes (ssm is seriously wasting my money), cut hair and more tops.
HAIS! i dont wish to work, but with my huge expenditure, i dont think i have a choice.
So, back to the dog. the dog is called brownie, he's so playful and active. So much to the extent that i dont really dare to touch him. hais. but seriously, jack russel ish not my cup of tea sia.
forget it. hopefully, in the near future, i can rear one on my own. A DOG THAT I CAN CALL IT MINE. bi ish so impatient with him, but still cant blame him totally. the dog ish hard to teach. Maybe brownie can make him learn to be more patient? initially was pretty afraid of bi's mum. for fear that she will scold ( i think i have influence bi by ABIT to get a dog, but didnt expect that dog to be jack russel :( ), for the past few weeks, im so afraid of her to the extent that i dont dare to go to his place. but now, everything ish back to normal. she's alright alrd and im glad about it. so. . went to quite a few place today like bugis, town then katong. wait for bi to come over and fetch us home. before he drop miie off, i passed him the shirt, he changed on the spot. im glad that he like it. starting was quite pissed la. cause when i pass him the shirt, he simply told miie that i bought the wrong size. freak. he was the one who told miie that for those slim fit polo t-shirt, he wear S size. And the sales person told miie that those normal ones are one size bigger than those slim fit de, of course i buy XS for him la. Crap. He ish also the one who tell miie that he like those abit tight fitting de. Then he blame miie for that. At that moment, i was so angry that i told myself, i wont buy him anymore things in the future la. He so smart, i give him the money then he go buy on his own la! arghh......
GUYS.SUCKS.
Will be meeting von darling tmr to the salon. I think it's time for miie to get a hair cut.
Have to wake up pretty early. Here i am blogging, not even bathed yet. .
:)
Bought alot of things today and i have spent almost 4/5 of my past 2 months' pay.
It's always easier to spend than earn. -.-
so, here ish a short list of what i have bought.
1. blue jeans
2. black jeans
both from maryjane
3. fred perry polo t-shirt for bi
4. crumpler bag for bro
5. jacket for myself
all this add up to almost 400 bucks. then still have a few "liability" to clear.
im gg to be so so broke.
then what im still lacking of ish a pair of haviannas flip flop, a pair of court shoes (ssm is seriously wasting my money), cut hair and more tops.
HAIS! i dont wish to work, but with my huge expenditure, i dont think i have a choice.
So, back to the dog. the dog is called brownie, he's so playful and active. So much to the extent that i dont really dare to touch him. hais. but seriously, jack russel ish not my cup of tea sia.
forget it. hopefully, in the near future, i can rear one on my own. A DOG THAT I CAN CALL IT MINE. bi ish so impatient with him, but still cant blame him totally. the dog ish hard to teach. Maybe brownie can make him learn to be more patient? initially was pretty afraid of bi's mum. for fear that she will scold ( i think i have influence bi by ABIT to get a dog, but didnt expect that dog to be jack russel :( ), for the past few weeks, im so afraid of her to the extent that i dont dare to go to his place. but now, everything ish back to normal. she's alright alrd and im glad about it. so. . went to quite a few place today like bugis, town then katong. wait for bi to come over and fetch us home. before he drop miie off, i passed him the shirt, he changed on the spot. im glad that he like it. starting was quite pissed la. cause when i pass him the shirt, he simply told miie that i bought the wrong size. freak. he was the one who told miie that for those slim fit polo t-shirt, he wear S size. And the sales person told miie that those normal ones are one size bigger than those slim fit de, of course i buy XS for him la. Crap. He ish also the one who tell miie that he like those abit tight fitting de. Then he blame miie for that. At that moment, i was so angry that i told myself, i wont buy him anymore things in the future la. He so smart, i give him the money then he go buy on his own la! arghh......
GUYS.SUCKS.
Will be meeting von darling tmr to the salon. I think it's time for miie to get a hair cut.
Have to wake up pretty early. Here i am blogging, not even bathed yet. .
:)
what we could have been, 10:17 AM.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Today went out with vonny darling to Tampines 1. We shopped for 4 hours plus non-stop then went geylang to eat prata with her. Nothing much happened today, except that we bought many stationary. Somehow, we are prepared for school to reopen. I think im in the same class as xuejuan, haha, so happy. I've prepared myself for e worst before i come to know we are in the same class. Things just happened beyond my expectations. Everything ish JUST SO NICE.
Im here to blog a little and im off to rest. . I was physically tired after a 4 hours shopping.......
Lastly, aunt got miie an Emporio Armani Sunglass... WOOHOO.. I love it to the max can. When i reached home, it was left on my desk. Went to ask dad about it and know that it was for miie. So random la. But i like. ;)
gtg, good night.....
Im here to blog a little and im off to rest. . I was physically tired after a 4 hours shopping.......
Lastly, aunt got miie an Emporio Armani Sunglass... WOOHOO.. I love it to the max can. When i reached home, it was left on my desk. Went to ask dad about it and know that it was for miie. So random la. But i like. ;)
gtg, good night.....
what we could have been, 9:35 AM.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
im back. ytd was fun and i finally met up with peng :D
In the early afternoon, i forgot to bring my hp, so got to walk all the way to von' house. Then both of us went to town. We went into fred perry, ralph lauren, agnes b and porter shop to see what to get for andy. But in the end, we did not get anything but it was alright. At least, i've bought my tragus stud. ha. come to talk about it, it's pretty funny. There was a price tag on e box full of studs indicating that it ish only one bucks. It is way too cheap la, like HOW COULD IT BE, that kind of thing. When we are about to make payment, we brought it to the counter and thought the salesperson ish gg to put the entire box into the plastic bag. But he did not. He slowly open the box and took out just one stud from it. Initially we didnt quite understand what he was doing and we just stared with great confusement. Lastly, we then got hold of what was happening, one dollar ish just for that one stud. After that, both of us just laugh infront of him. ( how naive are we to even think the entire studs ish just for that one dollar and we still thought why some of the boxes have got missing studs. We even chose the box with the most number of studs. In the end, we are just wasting our effort and time for doing so. ha. )The salesperson was stunned, blurred and kind of thinking what are the two crazy women laughing about. ;) it's cute still. :D
Next, we travelled back home to bake cookies. von found an equippment to fasten the preparation process. Will get photos from her blog when she posts. Just when we are preparing, an apron caught her eyes. that apron was HER MUM'S. She took it down and we wore it. Then we took just a few photos with it, for fear her mum will come in and rattle at her. ha. There was one incident where we mistook MSG for salt, but this time round, we know and we are careful with it. Halfway throughout peng came, and all of us kept gossiping while baking. Seriously, it was fun to gossip sometimes. ha. ;) Time past quickly in that way.. A moment later,von took out the cookies from the oven, smoke spread across the entire kitchen. It seems as if the whole kitchen was on fire. The smoke was smoky, choky and there the cookies... CHAO DA!!!!!!! But if euu really taste it, it doesnt taste as bad euu know. Von was right, one cannot judge a cookies by its cover. I felt that we have improved! It is a good news to be shared. And we are one step closer to our opening of pastry shop. Wahahaha. After that, i got to go of early to have dinner with family and him of course. It was great!
In conclusion, i enjoyed myself very much. ;) I LOVE MY LIFE, FRIENDS, HIM and MY FAMILY!
In the early afternoon, i forgot to bring my hp, so got to walk all the way to von' house. Then both of us went to town. We went into fred perry, ralph lauren, agnes b and porter shop to see what to get for andy. But in the end, we did not get anything but it was alright. At least, i've bought my tragus stud. ha. come to talk about it, it's pretty funny. There was a price tag on e box full of studs indicating that it ish only one bucks. It is way too cheap la, like HOW COULD IT BE, that kind of thing. When we are about to make payment, we brought it to the counter and thought the salesperson ish gg to put the entire box into the plastic bag. But he did not. He slowly open the box and took out just one stud from it. Initially we didnt quite understand what he was doing and we just stared with great confusement. Lastly, we then got hold of what was happening, one dollar ish just for that one stud. After that, both of us just laugh infront of him. ( how naive are we to even think the entire studs ish just for that one dollar and we still thought why some of the boxes have got missing studs. We even chose the box with the most number of studs. In the end, we are just wasting our effort and time for doing so. ha. )The salesperson was stunned, blurred and kind of thinking what are the two crazy women laughing about. ;) it's cute still. :D
Next, we travelled back home to bake cookies. von found an equippment to fasten the preparation process. Will get photos from her blog when she posts. Just when we are preparing, an apron caught her eyes. that apron was HER MUM'S. She took it down and we wore it. Then we took just a few photos with it, for fear her mum will come in and rattle at her. ha. There was one incident where we mistook MSG for salt, but this time round, we know and we are careful with it. Halfway throughout peng came, and all of us kept gossiping while baking. Seriously, it was fun to gossip sometimes. ha. ;) Time past quickly in that way.. A moment later,von took out the cookies from the oven, smoke spread across the entire kitchen. It seems as if the whole kitchen was on fire. The smoke was smoky, choky and there the cookies... CHAO DA!!!!!!! But if euu really taste it, it doesnt taste as bad euu know. Von was right, one cannot judge a cookies by its cover. I felt that we have improved! It is a good news to be shared. And we are one step closer to our opening of pastry shop. Wahahaha. After that, i got to go of early to have dinner with family and him of course. It was great!
In conclusion, i enjoyed myself very much. ;) I LOVE MY LIFE, FRIENDS, HIM and MY FAMILY!
what we could have been, 9:11 PM.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
im at von's house using her lappy. crap, we both overslept. ha. this girl agreed to meet at 1.30pm, now ish alrd 1.53 ( according to her lappy's time, if accurate).
my intention ish just to make a short post and plus she's rushing miie alrd. GTG now, bye .
;)
my intention ish just to make a short post and plus she's rushing miie alrd. GTG now, bye .
;)
what we could have been, 10:50 PM.
Friday, April 10, 2009
i went out with von ytd. everything ish just so in its place, nice. So, we went to salon for her to touch up her hair colour, cut plus treatment. it took us 2 bloody hours. she was tired, keep dozing off and im bored, keep on eating. followed by shopping in town area.
so we have classified our love for our wants into 3 cateogories and we will use a t-shirt as an example:
1. puppy love aka 小狗爱: euu like that t-shirt, but after a day despite not buying it, euu will somehow forget about it. Another scenario is that, after euu bought the shirt, euu wont even wear it. NOT EVEN ONCE!
2. crush: euu like that t-shirt, euu bought it, but euu only like/use it for a short period of time, after that euu just throw it aside.
3. true love: euu love e t-shirt alot, euu bought it, but euu will wear and use it frequently for a long period of time (it may not need to be forever)
Here, i will officially and proudly declare that i, CINDY KANG aka KK will be YVONNE LIN aka Ah B** Ying's personal financial consultant. To help her cure her "shopaholic psychological illness" , she is not supposed to buy something that ish of no. 1 love. For no. 2 and no. 3, still can consider buying, at least she uses it. This girl here ish bloody waste money, bought a dress and not even wear it.
Ytd she saw one of her crush ( a denim vest) and one of her puppy love (a vintage dress). Knowing her for pretty long, one can roughly gauge if she will wear sth for long or not. It's all about agar-ration! warning: 阿姨是有练过的，小朋友请不要学！！
After that, we went to had Astons at katong. We reached there 5 mins before their last order.
This plate of masterpiece ish done by ABY...
Apart from wasting money on clothes, she WASTE FOOD too~~
African kids are so so going to hate her to the core la. Tsk Tsk.
von, 你造孽啊!
Here is the evidence...
The guilty one. Dont even dare to show her
face. ;)
Afraid of being condemned?
Act innocent. THE MOST WANTED " WASTER" !!!!!!!
*My Wants*
so we have classified our love for our wants into 3 cateogories and we will use a t-shirt as an example:
1. puppy love aka 小狗爱: euu like that t-shirt, but after a day despite not buying it, euu will somehow forget about it. Another scenario is that, after euu bought the shirt, euu wont even wear it. NOT EVEN ONCE!
2. crush: euu like that t-shirt, euu bought it, but euu only like/use it for a short period of time, after that euu just throw it aside.
3. true love: euu love e t-shirt alot, euu bought it, but euu will wear and use it frequently for a long period of time (it may not need to be forever)
Here, i will officially and proudly declare that i, CINDY KANG aka KK will be YVONNE LIN aka Ah B** Ying's personal financial consultant. To help her cure her "shopaholic psychological illness" , she is not supposed to buy something that ish of no. 1 love. For no. 2 and no. 3, still can consider buying, at least she uses it. This girl here ish bloody waste money, bought a dress and not even wear it.
Ytd she saw one of her crush ( a denim vest) and one of her puppy love (a vintage dress). Knowing her for pretty long, one can roughly gauge if she will wear sth for long or not. It's all about agar-ration! warning: 阿姨是有练过的，小朋友请不要学！！
After that, we went to had Astons at katong. We reached there 5 mins before their last order.
This plate of masterpiece ish done by ABY...
Apart from wasting money on clothes, she WASTE FOOD too~~
African kids are so so going to hate her to the core la. Tsk Tsk.
von, 你造孽啊!
Here is the evidence...
The guilty one. Dont even dare to show her
face. ;)
Afraid of being condemned?
Act innocent. THE MOST WANTED " WASTER" !!!!!!!
*My Wants*
- Slim cut Jeans $50
- Bag $50
- Running track shoes $100 plus
- Bikini $30plus
- More facial product and Makeup $***
There are always not enough money to get every wants. ;) So to work ish the most assertive way to have them.
To: von
Last but not least, millions sorry to euu for not being able to make it to accompany euu. Cause just now, my mum came in my room and remind miie of e dinner tmr. ;( I hope euu understand that it's not i wanted it too. sorry... :(
what we could have been, 11:08 PM.
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